Life Update...

So it's been a pretty hard week with some things going on. I don't really want to go into great length about what happened but someone extremelly close passed away the other night. I've been around that before when my uncle died back in 96, so I'm alright. It's just, now that I'm older you tend to realize what you've accomplished and where you're headed with the current pace you're living. I don't think I've accomplished much in my life and I really have to change it. The only thing I really feel like I've accomplished was finding someone that I truely would want to spend the rest of my life with and right now, that ship is kinda sailing away from me. But what are you going to do? That's life. I've been hearing time heals all and at first, never believed it. I've never had the luck of the draw with that kind of stuff. But who knows. My gut instinct says it'll be alright, and most of the time it's right, but there's always a first for everything.

So last night I was watching Last Comic Standing. It was hilarious. I've done stand up a few times, like maybe a total of 5 or 6. Mostly Open Mic's and two openers but nothing really fancy. I really don't have a fan base and I haven't done it in like 3 months. So I've cut back. Something about last night kinda sparked it for me. I don't know if it was watching Sam the Armenian Comedian choke on tv or it was watching the guy from Israel make it to the top 15 or 20 or whatever it is, but it got me to thinking. For years my buddy Dave has always joked about recording my life cause of all the problems and odd situations that arise. And I'm actually thinking about doing a 30 day documentary about me getting from a nobody to a somebody. My ex was always supportive of whatever I've done and I think I ran that by her once and she was all for it. So maybe I should do it. I just kinda need to write out a draft. It's going to be hard since I work full-time but I think I can get it done. I don't know exactly what I'm going to do or how this is going to come about. Hell, I don't even have the equipment to make a decent movie, just my sister's camcorder. Maybe that's all I really need. I can make like Cloverfield/Blair Witch-esque kind of movie. I just don't want to make everyone throw up. Anyways, if you want to help holler at me, if you just want to wish me luck, by all means give me a shout out and thank you ahead of time. I've been getting a lot of e-mails about topics and relationship stuff to talk about so I'll get back to those soon. I'm going to spend the next few hours trying to figure out what I'm going to do. Adios and holler.

-Ricky